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Psycho Baby Doll

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Play me like a symphony

Job well done, standing ovation
Yeah you got what you wanted, I guess you won
And I don’t want to hear, they don’t know you like I do
Even I could’ve told you, but now we’re done

‘Cause you play me like a symphony
Play me till your fingers bleed
I’m your greatest masterpiece
You ruin me
Later when the curtains drawn
And no one’s there for you back home
Don’t cry to me, you played me wrong
You ruin me

I know you thought that I wouldn’t notice
You were acting so strange, I’m not that dumb
And in the end I hope she was worth it
I don’t care if you loved me, you make me numb

We’re that song you wouldn’t sing
Just a broken melody
You’re killing me

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Wanna tell you I’m alright
Wanna say I’m not in pain
But I would just be telling lies
I’m not okay
I’m not okay

Wanna travel back in time
Say the things I didn’t say
I wanna tell you everything
If it’s not too late
Is it too late?

Will you be there if I call?
Will you leave me in the rain?
If I say it’s all my fault,
Will you still walk away?
I understand if you’re afraid
But people change
People change

Stay awake and talk to me
Let me hold you while you sleep
I’ve been out here on my own
But you’re my home
You’re my home

I’m not gonna let you down this time
Darling, don’t be afraid
People change
And I can change

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If love had found us first

Where would we be now baby,
If we found each other first

Now I am a sinking ship
Anchored by the weight of my heart filled with these feelings
But I keep my true thoughts locked
Inside my heart’s black box
And it won’t be found
It won’t survive through the smoke or the wreckage
As I crash and burn

Where would we be now baby,
If love had found us first

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Left on a message that you never read

All the back and forth, you couldn’t stay away
I couldn’t take it; like a cold wind blows you’re calling out my name
And now it haunts me, softly fading are the memories of your face
I should have listened when you whispered my name; still you couldn’t say

You couldn’t say goodbye, now I cannot ask you why
Although our time is through, no getting over you
Things will never be the same, I can’t even say your name
I know our time is through, no getting over you

It haunts me, softly fading are the memories of your face
Memories burning like a cigarette; like the ashes they call your name
Lost in a moment when you packed your bags, and said you couldn’t stay
Left on a message that I never read; you’re calling out my name

It’s over, there’s no starting over, I will live on
Although your memories live on, all the same
it’s over, there’s no starting over, no starting over
No getting over you…

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Lost ourselves

(Alternative lyric video)

Feel the pain wash over me
Feel the salt that’s burning from my eyes
I feel the world move underneath me
I know there is no need for my disguise

Feel the screams as you take my hand
I understand the terror in your eyes
Feel I’ve lost myself completely
I need to know you’re right here by my side

I won’t pretend that we could live forever

I think it’s gonna be alright, now
I think it’s gonna be okay
Just close your eyes
‘Cause we are only sparks
But together burning bright

I see the daylight start to fade
I feel the cold move softly with the night
I feel the darkness start to take me
Now I know there is nowhere to hide

Feel the world start caving in
I feel the hollow nothing left inside
Know I’ve lost myself completely
I need to know you’re right here by my side

I won’t pretend that we could live forever

I think it’s gonna be alright, now
I think it’s gonna be okay
Just close your eyes
‘Cause we are only sparks
But together burning bright

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Faded words

should’ve done something but I’ve done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you

and you never would have thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it’s a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

well you’re never gonna find it
if you’re looking for it
won’t come your way
well you’ll never find it
if you’re looking for it

and it’s all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it’s a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

should’ve said something but I’ve said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you

(Blue and Yellow by The Used)

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Don’t let me go

Love that once blossomed and bloomed
Used to mean something,
but now it means nothing
The echoes are gone from the room
But I still remember the pain of December

Oh, there seems to be nothing I could say
Is it really too late?

I can’t break free from these memories
Can’t let it go, you let me go
You said goodbye, set it all on fire
You let me go, you let love go

I came back to find you were gone
And your heart is empty,
like the hole that was left in me
Like we were nothing at all
It’s not what you meant to me,
thought we were more than this

Oh, is there a chance you would try to stay
Is giving up the only way?

You dealt the blow, never let me know
Didn’t even know, I was already alone
You said goodbye, didn’t even try
I never had a chance, you were already gone

You let love go, but we can work this through
A brand new life can be down this road
I thought we’d be something more
But if you’re sure, I won’t hold on

There’s only one thing left here to say
Love’s never too late

I must confess I had plans for us
To say to you, to do with you
But this goodbye, if you can’t rewrite
Then I’ll let them go, I won’t hold on

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Ultrabook specs

So many new ultrabooks, so little time to read about them.

http://ultrabooknews.com/haswell-ultrabooks/

This is just a list of things I want to consider about potential ultrabooks (sometimes I forget to look out for them). Comments in brackets are those of my current ultrabook.

  • Processor, which generation intel (intel sandy bridge 2nd gen, core i5)
  • Operating system (windows 7)
  • Graphics card, dedicated/integrated (integrated Intel HD Graphics 3000)
  • Storage, SSD or HDD (128 SSD, no HDD)
  • RAM (4GB DDR3)
  • Thickness (0.71 inches, 18mm)
  • Weight (2.99lbs, 1.36kg)
  • Screen size (13.3 inches)
  • Display resolution, type (1366 x 768, glossy, LCD)
  • Screen brightness (300 nits)
  • Keyboard layout, separated arrow keys (good, arrow keys in their own island)
  • Keyboard menu key, media keys (no menu key, yes media/hot keys)
  • Keyboard travel (good)
  • Keyboard backlit or not (backlit)
  • Touchpad, buttons (abysmal trackpad, unresponsive, no physical buttons)
  • Ports (1 USB 2.0, 1 USB 3.0, 1 mini displayport, 1 headphone+mic jack)
  • Fan slits, noise (hidden at bottom, quiet to none)
  • Material flex (minimal to none)
  • Battery life (< 3 hours now)
  • Boot up time (~30 seconds now)
  • Touchscreen (no)
  • Bluetooth (bluetooth 3.0 + hs)
  • Wifi (802.11 b/g/n)

Side note: I HATE my current ultrabook.

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Typically inaccessible

Seems like I have very boring, solitary interests/hobbies.

I love doing jigsaw puzzles and word searches. I like spending time with my computer/devices, which while gives me access to people to socialise with, is a socially limiting past-time.

I love watching speed art, digital or otherwise, but it’s awkward to get someone to watch and appreciate a good speed art video together. I like these webcomics, but they’re not the funny or cute kind.

I love watching videos that make you feel awe. I like reading things that often spark something in me that’s not typically humour. I find this interesting, do you?

I generally don’t subscribe to mainstream entertainment genres like comedy or cute, so I don’t often have anything crowd-pleasing to share. But don’t get me wrong, I’m not a grouch or a hipster wannabe. I do engage positively in those genres when shared with me, and I welcome them. But I’m hardly ever the person who discovers them and passes them on. I just don’t find such material easily. How do these people do it? Maybe I’m just not a happy/funny person so I don’t naturally tend towards funny material.

Then I wonder, why be concerned about pandering to the common masses with easy humour and cheap cuteness when I can be content sharing things that takes a bit more depth to appreciate? But that sounds elitist.

And sometimes, I just want to be interesting and cheerful so people I want to hang out with want to hang out with me.

Sometimes I just want to join in.

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It’s a wonderful day for decapitation.

Yay, my apple ID problem has resolved itself (I didn’t do anything else after the blog post), it’s 4 days to my flight on Sunday evening, and I do think I have bipolar disorder. I am also falling sick. NOOOO NOT NOW.

Well anyway. If you were curious about previous post’s title, you can find the ringtone available for download here: http://secretss.com/misc/UISounds

Oh and I do like this picture http://instagram.com/p/VIm-j1nD4p/. Incidentally, the sequential filename for this photo was IMG_1314.JPG. (1314 homophonically symbolises “forever in a timetime” in Mandarin. Oh the angst!)