Love is not just an emotion, a chemical reaction, or a state of being. It is a conscious, continual decision to exercise effort to make a relationship work.
Letting go or moving on is similar. We cannot passively sit around for life to trickle by hoping for circumstances to evolve […] Read the full post
I need to stop being self-consumed.
I just need patience.
Everything will smooth out eventually.
You choreograph my conduct in your mind
And prime your responses to that
Instead of organically receiving me
And reacting in real-time
Consider how you’re seeing her now
It’s negative
You’re seeing the bad side of her and it’s obscuring the goodness in her that made her appealing to you
Not just as a romantic interest but as a person to hang out with
You don’t see it any more but it […] Read the full post
I’m tired.
You’ve built a psychological block against me.
You won’t let yourself take interest in anything I say or do or share.
You’ve built a wall between us.
You won’t reach out with conversation like an actual friend would.
I’m tired.
I’m being normal. You’re repressing.
You’re still focusing on the awkward and letting it affect you.
I’d hoped you would try to overcome the block and take steps to rebuild the bridge.
But I don’t see you caring.
Maybe I’m only in love with the idea of being loved
Maybe I’m only yearning to follow some imaginary script
Then it shouldn’t matter who plays the role of loving me
I should find another protagonist to replace you
But my body has shut down
My receiver isn’t receptive
My casting director has quit
You’re like a competitive inhibitor tailored for my enzyme’s active site.
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
Set me free.
Your coldness is my shackle.
Your absence is your magnet.
It brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
Yay, my apple ID problem has resolved itself (I didn’t do anything else after the blog post), it’s 4 days to my flight on Sunday evening, and I do think I have bipolar disorder. I am also falling sick. NOOOO NOT NOW.
Well anyway. If you were curious about previous […] Read the full post
I recently changed my apple IDs (again) and now I’m in a bit of a jam. My SG store apple ID is working fine, but my US store apple ID is weirding out. My season pass reminders and iTunes store receipts are still being sent to my old apple ID, […] Read the full post
I’ve pretty much disappeared from this blog for the longest time (the little bits of posts now and then really don’t count as blogging when I look back on my earlier looooong recounts of my days).
Anyway, I doubt I’ll return to blogging, but this is just an update about […] Read the full post
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